Saturday, September 15, 2007

Ups and Downs

Yesterday, the doctors switched Emy to the conventional ventilator. That was a big thing. The last time they tried to switch her things didn't go so great. When I visited her yesterday, she looked really good and seemed comfortable. She seemed to be handling it well but we received a call this morning from the doctor saying that he needed to switch her back to the critical ventilator due to her oxygen levels and the possibility of a collapsed lung.

For the sake of progress I want her to graduate to the conventional ventilator but I have other motives...once she is stable on the conventional ventilator I am allowed to HOLD HER. She's 1 month old and I haven't held her yet. Yesterday, I thought I was just days away from holding her, but things can turn on a dime in the NICU. The highs are high and the lows are low these days.

I thought I learned so many lessons from the trials we went through to get Mia. I was sure that God taught me what He wanted me to learn, but maybe He's still teaching me. There's some reason that we are going through this. Maybe I didn't learn what I needed before. Maybe God doesn't work that way...I don't know. All I know is to be faithful, keep praying and trust that His will for our family is best. He is faithful to us and we will be faithful to Him.

I want to thank all of you for your encouraging words...we feel your prayers.

Get Me Through December - by Alison Krauss

How pale is the sky that brings forth the rain
As the changing of seasons prepares me again
For the long bitter nights and the wild winter's day
My heart has grown cold my love stored away
My heart has grown cold my love stored away

I've been to the mountain left my tracks in the snow
Where souls have been lost and the walking wounded go
I've taken the pain no girl should endure
Faith can move mountains of that I am sure
But faith can move mountains of that I am sure

Just get me through December
A promise I'll remember
Get me through December
So I can start again

No divine purpose brings freedom from sin
And peace is a gift that must come from within
I've looked for the love that will bring me to rest
Feeding this hunger beating strong in my chest
Feeding this hunger beating strong in my chest

Get me through December
A promise I'll remember
Get me through December
So I can start again


The Labontes said...

beautiful song, beautiful family, beautiful outlook. Our prayers remain strong.


Willis said...

I will be praying for your little girl. I believe in the power of prayer, and I know we serve a God who is capable of miracles. I stumbled upon your blog. My husband and I were blessed with our little boy through the route of adoption. He came home from Vietnam this past March.
Heather in GA

Grace said...

PRAYING,PRAYING,PRAYING for all of you Angie!!!! God is faithful... he walked you through the wait for Mia and proved himself faithful to you... HE'LL DO IT AGAIN. Both girls are incredilbe miracles straight from His throne... he knows how to take care of what belongs to Him!
I keep thinking about what awesome testimonies both girls will have some day! It gives me chills to think about all that God is doing in your lives!! WOW!! Stay strong friend... He will see you through this. Love ya lots!!

Shane, Grace, & Jadyn

Nadra said...

You know we're praying. Stay strong Angie...Mia was a miracle and so is Emy. God can and WILL work miracles.

Love you!!!

Pam said...

To have waited so long for your girls, and to being going through this, I can't imagine the pain and sorrow. The grief must be huge. God is bigger, and He can handle all your grief. I'm guilty of trying to hide my grief from God, acting like super woman.
I know He is holding little Emy in the palm of His hand. We are praying always for you and for her. I can't wait for the post that says that you were finally able to hold your little girl.
Pam, Joel, & Micah

Adoption Blog said...

You all remain in our thoughts and prayers.

Hugs from Luxembourg